i’ll be good

Let’s get one thing straight…I do not have that name tattoed on me to express my love.  There are so many emotions and feelings connected to that name other than love. I love you and I hate you. And I’m not joking when I say that.  This went from amazing, to good, to bad, to good, to bad and round and round that cycle goes. You are my best friend and sadly my worst enemy. I feel like you have such a strong hold on me.  We know each other, inside and out. You know my secrets,i know yours. I’ve seen you at your worst and you’ve seen me at mine. I love you. And for a long time we have been falling apart. And every time we break i try my hardest to pick back up the pieces. I’m…  Scared to lose my best friend, scared to be on my own.  I have spent the past 3 years connected to you. Where my name was, yours always followed.  I don’t know how things will go from here, but im going to do what’s best for me. for once. finally.